Donald Matheson

Just as building has become democratised - design has not. Taste has not. 

Since figuring out that actually getting an app to work isn't that hard (apart from a bunch of error and bug solving), I've spent most my time figuring out how Appearance is going to look and feel.

- What's the journey people go on?

- Why are they here? Why will they stay? Why will they come back?

RIght now I'm tusselling to figure out the answers. 

This all started with me wanting to try a haircut before a haircut (try a trim). I think I need to hold that closer to home. Visualising what you could look like (and genuinely look like, not imagine what you could actually look like, aka FaceApp). From that you should be able to store that look. Then after your haircut you should be able to compare what you actually look like vs what you thought you'd look like. That then becomes your verified appearance. 

In between your next appearance update, you can then explore new appearances, maybe using one of them as the inspiration and guide when you go the barbershop/salon. 

From there everything is an addon. 

Sometimes you can only put it down to fait.

Today at around 3pm my Claude usage maxed out. At 4pm Claude suffered an error resulting in no enforced limits. 

Time to go crazy!

power = legitimacy plus capacity over time

i wrote a while back about creativity. 

in it i wrote about how i need to refocus myself back towards it. today i feel that feeling again.

without knowing it i've aimed myself towards becoming an "enabler". analysing media, obsessing over trends, thinking i can calculate the next best move based on the data.

there was a saying my dad used to repeat - "those who can't, teach" - and i fear as the months and years go by i'm setting myself up to be a teacher, and not a do-er. 

in hindsight there is nothing wrong with either, but when watching the pure creative spirit and energy at kendrick lamar's concert last night i can't help but feel deep down THAT is my calling. to be a "creator". an "artist". or whatever the label is we're using right now. 

what that means for me right now, i'm not entirely sure. all i do know is that the feeling exists, and if i want to release my own creative spirit someday i have to start acknowledging the feelings that shape me

Creators make content for the algorithm.

Artists make art for the audience.

Creators choose money > meaning.

Artists choose meaning > money.

I had the sudden deep epiphany today that I am quite small (a double entendre for those who know me in the physical world).

I look at those who live in power and wealth, living with the puppet strings of humanity in their hands, and I wonder how insignificant I really am. 

Will I ever have my face carved into the stone of history? Will they celebrate who I could have been, or, who I became? 

All I know is, my story is not epic – yet.