i wrote a while back about creativity.
in it i wrote about how i need to refocus myself back towards it. today i feel that feeling again.
without knowing it i've aimed myself towards becoming an "enabler". analysing media, obsessing over trends, thinking i can calculate the next best move based on the data.
there was a saying my dad used to repeat - "those who can't, teach" - and i fear as the months and years go by i'm setting myself up to be a teacher, and not a do-er.
in hindsight there is nothing wrong with either, but when watching the pure creative spirit and energy at kendrick lamar's concert last night i can't help but feel deep down THAT is my calling. to be a "creator". an "artist". or whatever the label is we're using right now.
what that means for me right now, i'm not entirely sure. all i do know is that the feeling exists, and if i want to release my own creative spirit someday i have to start acknowledging the feelings that shape me